Looking ahead...

“The only constant in life is change…”
I don’t know who said this but he’s a genius. Life is not static it is dynamic even if you don’t lead a dynamic life. For me and my mediocre life, change has come once again. My second marriage has failed or rather I failed at my second marriage and now I am looking at a life alone.

Personally I have wasted years looking behind me and focusing on my regrets, now I am forced to look ahead and stop running on ‘auto-pilot’, only because I am not ready to lie down and surrender just yet.

What’s next for me? As Ned Stark reminds us, “Winter is coming!” My plan is to snuggle in for the winter, work my 2 jobs, hang out with my dogs (and cats) while I do some soul searching.

What does the next chapter of my life look like?
Do I sell my home?
Do I quit the jobs I hate and walk the Appalachian Trail like Yo-yo Wilson?
Do I hike around the world? Visit friends in Costa Rica?
Maybe move to Alaska and lose myself in a vast wilderness (while one still exists)?
Perhaps I will enact my plans for world domination or locate the secret island of red haired bombshells who long for older, portly, bald men.

I guess my life is still full of possibilities. The question then becomes will I continue to fail to take advantage of them? Will I live or merely exist?