Wednesday, January 13, 2016


It is a new year, a time to look over and review what is and isn’t working in my life. A time to reflect on where I am and where I want to go.

In 2015, I lost my mom, I added a second job (a goal achieved), reduced my depression medications to zero, and navigated several relationship Tsunamis. All of which could have easily triggered a major depressive episode and none of which I could have endured without several good people in my life. 

Knowing I need people, I will attempt to add to the very short list of people in my support circle in 2016.

It is said that to find happiness or meaning in life one can/should belong to something larger than one’s self. Some use career or family to answer this need, but for many it is religion they turn to…or a combination of the three. None of those seem to work for me, I’m not happy/proud of my career path, my family is the most disjointed and disconnected one I know of, and as far as religion is concerned…for me, right now, that is a solitary pursuit between me and God (and contentious at times). 
I have devoted myself to one thing larger than myself and while I have found strength and peace there, its foundations have been shaken several times over the past six months, causing undue stress in my life. Things are better now and hopefully will continue that way.

In my life I want…
More greens and less grains
More water and less sodas
More moving and less sitting
To reconnect with old/lost friends
To reaffirm those pillars in my life
To reach out to new friends

I recently reread my strategy for 2015 post and it all still holds true so I will just try to continue working on that plan.